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with. But it all boiled down to the idea of how could I let myself live under some man s
thumb and didn t I know that I didn t have to put up with being beaten.
Sigh.
I m a mmuhmumph-year old woman, for God s sake
am, hmmmm?>. I know what I have to and what I want to put up with and what I don t.
Do I come off as the milque-toast, victim type to you guys? I ask you. Do I?
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No. I don t. I m very self-possessed. I know exactly what I m about. I have never felt any
sort of compulsive need to have a man in my life. I got along just fine before he came
along . Yes, my checkbook was
overdrawn occasionally. Okay, more than occasionally. But it wasn t like they were
threatening to close my account! And, yeah, my car is certainly in better condition since
he came along . . . but it ran even before Hunt made me put it in to the garage every five
seconds
So I don t feel I "need" to "have" a man around me all the time. And I certainly wouldn t
put up with one that hit me. Sigh. And I don t. My mother always told me that any man
of mine that hit me would have to go to bed sometime . . . but that he didn t have to wake
up!
shaking her fist at the time> I doubt I d ever go so far as to kill him if Hunt ever raised
his fist to me, but I certainly know enough to get the hell out of that situation, pronto.
I didn t try to convince Jessica about the difference between spanking and beating,
because I could see that she was head up and locked and wouldn t hear a word I said
from that point on anyway. Why waste my breath? It was funny, though, because
everyone else at the table rushed to Hunt s (and my) defense, saying that they had never
seen any evidence of abuse to which Jess countered that it couldn t always be seen
and that Hunt was extremely loving and protective towards me every time they saw him.
So, I guess the difference between the two had sunk in with some people, even without
my trying to recruit them over to the dark side.
I have no fears that Hunt would ever beat me and I classify a beating as using fists, or
slapping any areas other than my butt, or causing any sort of serious injury. Although I
might kick up a fuss and act like he s killing me , I certainly
have NEVER, EVER been concerned that Hunt would really hurt me physically despite
the difference in our sizes. To me, that would be the death knell of our relationship. He
has never made a move towards me that was anything but loving and tender, and I
include the spankings I get in that, which may sound a little off, but I m an adult and I
realize that there are a lot of men out there that wouldn t love me enough that would be
afraid of being accused of abuse, or whatever to correct me.
Hunt doesn t make stupid rules. He doesn t try to tell me who to be friends with, when to
eat he DOES NOT try to control every aspect of my life. But the areas where he does
lay down the law, the rules he makes are very basic to me and my well-being they re
not frivolous. He s not a control freak, in other words.
Yes, they hurt like hell. What spankings don t? Yes, I am occasionally bruised okay,
well frequently bruised during a spanking. I can t help it! I m fair skinned! More often,
though, it s just hot and red and swollen, like a really bad sunburn.
If I, as an intelligent adult, felt that any of the punishments that Hunt had meted out on
my poor, abused bottom constituted abuse, then I would
have screamed bloody murder . . . well, more than I do when I m gettin it.
But . . . sigh. I don t know that I m explaining this very well. But I get spanked for REAL
REASONS. Hunt watches out for me, and I am truly blessed that he s willing to assume
that type of responsibility for a ________ year old woman
stopped counting at twenty-nine> who has a certain amount of book sense but not much
common sense. And it ain t an easy thing to keep track of me, I know. This is one of the
many reasons why I love him so much besides the fact that he s handsome and smart
and funny and interesting and sexy as all get out . . . I m
sure he doesn t need the headache that is more than occasionally me in his life.
The other thing is that if I didn t see any improvement in the way my life was going then
I would already have put a stop to the spankings . . . well, maybe not a stop, because there
are other aspects that come into spankings for us . . . but I do change my behavior
for the better. Usually over time almost never as a result of just one spanking unless
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